Saturday, August 30, 2008 ♥ 12:00:00 AM
♥ Håþþ¥ ¹8†h ßïr†hÐå¥ Wïlsöñ !!! ♥
♥ Håþþ¥ ¹8†h ßïr†hÐå¥ Wïlsöñ ! ♥
we may have ended our relationship ,
but im really happy that i had th honour to celebrate this day with you (:
thank you for giving me this chance to spent this special day with you .
im sorry for not being able to go as what i planned originally due to some financial constrain =x
i hope you really enjoyed today with me (:
18 years old liaos
must be more mature oks ?
even though you'll always be that xiao hai zi in my heart - shagua (:
never give up in everything you do ! :D
Loves , Alicia Ex- Girlfriend ♥
3oth August 2oo8 (:
29th AUGUST 2oo8 !
met wilson at vivo at about 4pm (:
i reached first , so actually walked around vivo deh ..
but then went to pick wilson up from th MRT station (:
went up to GV & see th movie timings (:
decided to watch - Wall E - :D
bought snacks & moviiiieeeeeeeeeeees ! :DDDDDDDD
th show quite funny & a lil sad (:
after movie went to NewUrbanMale to see his havaianas (:
wilson couldnt decide on which one he wants =x
in th end , he chose th normal plain white one ( he didnt wna me to spend that much money -_-)
suggested all places to go for dinner =x
so he wanted yoshinoya in th end (:
simple but fantastic dinner ( except th fact that th rice sucked =x)
went to daiso & wanted to get candles for wilson's birthday cake ..
couldnt find any & this shagua was a lil disappointed .
sorry shagua , i didnt prepare it earlier T.T
bought his contacts casing & ribbon for th knife im using to cut his cake (:
trained home & wilson was so tired ..
reached home at 9.2opm & wilson just sat on th chair & lied on th table & slept
that shows how tired he is T.T
dad wanted to get some food from pasar malam ..
so woke him up & went downstairs for food :D
saw darius ; thn me & shagua bought th fish cracker & drink (:
went home after that .. darius & jingkui tailed me & said something ..
wilson got affected by what he said .. haiis T.T
went home & prepared th beds while wilson went to bathe (:
after he bathe he used my lappy while i went to bathe ..
after that talk awhile & he was so tired so he went to sleeep at 11.15pm ?
i was waiting for 12am to arrive :D
& it finally came oks !!!!!!!!!!
i took th cake & put th candle :D
& went to th room (:
off-ed all th lights & i woke up him & sang th happy birthday song to wilson ! :D
oks , he was a lil blur at first & he smiled :D
he made his wish & blew away th candle (:
thn something * bad * happen ..
i asked him to cut his cake & he claimed that he wna sleep & flared at me ..
oks , i was shock , so i took th cake & put it back into th refrigerator & slept T.T
* i swear i was feeling hurt * but i know he was really tired .. & didnt mean it ..
both me & wilson slept on th floor de matress & th moment i woke up , it was 6am =x
kept waking up every hour & wilson did told me he wna go home at 7.ooam
woke him up at 7 & he slept again =x
birthday pig ! :D
so he finally woke up at 1o.3oam (:
told him that he scolded me th night when i asked him to cut cake & he was like .....
& he cried .. T.T
shagua , dont worry lahs . it's oks (: i know you're tired (: dont feel guilty
& dont say sorry oks ? It's your birthday ! no tears alrights ? it's oks (:
so he prepared & cut th cake & shared it among my family (:
ate 2 pieces & he ate 2 too ! :D
slack & he slept on th bed again .. really birthday pig oks ! (:
so he got up at 12pm & he left my house at 12+ (:
i cried again T.T
because he dont wna go to my family chalet T.T
i know i shouldnt cry on his birthday , im sorry shagua ..
pei-ed him wait for cab & passed him th leftover of th cake ...
& he went home .... T.T
Thursday, August 28, 2008 ♥ 10:23:00 PM
♥♥ i just love today & i wish we'll be like this everyday ! ♥♥
I had a great & super tiring day ! :DDDDDDDDD
at least im happppppy todayyyyyy ~! :DDDDDDDDDDD
oks , had lessons in th morning like duh (:
SS was free period , i dont know why =x
& during first maths lesson , i saw on th table that i was sitting ` Alicia Smile (: `
thomas wrote it for me lahs ! :DDDDDD
lessons ended at 1.45pm & straight away we had to board th bus to VIVO GV for this sci-fi movie thing - watching th show ; jumper + forum discussions after that ..
we reached there at 2.3opm & bought snacks :D
show was nice but discussions was a total bore . couldnt stand it , so played with handphone =x
everything ended at 5.o5pm & went to wait for th bus .. back to school by 5.4opm (:
wilson also reached almost at th same time ...
waited for him to come outside school to fetch me (:
wanted to dinner with classmates , but they went without me or smth ? =x
went back home & TVed awhile .
alaf with wilson =xxx
ate dinner & bathe at 8.oopm ...
went down walk walk with wilson & bought fooood ! :D
we shared an ice cream from macs , from hougang point to my house downstairs ..
thn we bought another ice cream * ice stick ? & both me & wilson bought th same flavour :D
SOUR PLUM :D just felt like eating it (:
went to walk around pasar malam thn da pauu fooooood ! :D
bought dad's tapioca & wilson's CHEESEEEEE TOFU ! =x
went back my house slack & watched th 9.oopm show .
after reading th letter i wrote one last time , i tore it away ... into bits & pieces ...
cause wilson said something ... yupps .
wilson left at 1opm (:
so bu she de he leave lorhs T.T
wilson is my tedddddddyyyyyyyyyy bearrrrrrrr !!!!!! :D
oops , i need to chiong physics now .
how to study physics without textbook ? errrr ?I cant wait for tomorrow to come !!!!!!!!
im gonna celebrate wilson's birthday with him
& he's gonna stayover at my house !!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
tomorrow come fast pleaseeeee ! :DDDDDD
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ BUT one sad thing ;i can only meet him at 4-5 pm .. HAIIS !so lil time to go out ! UNFAIR ! T.T
quote of th day from dan :
if you're falling off a cliff , why not try to fly? =) , you've got nothing to lose!!!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008 ♥ 11:30:00 PM
Blood Is My New Boyfriend ! :Dtoday's just another bad day ..skipped dance for some reasons ...met felicia outside school at 7.1opm ...alot of stuffs happened . great hell , bad day .i lost another of my bestest buddy , TohKokwee ... haiis . seems like im really losing everything though ...pei-ed felicia to compass de Popular buy stuffs & reached home at 9.2opmwilson ;it all seemed that you're over me ..everything you said hurts ..every word you speak , & every thing you ever told me ...they're kiling meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !whats another 26 ? it's th where its suppose to hurt , it's hurting in th heart right now ...i know i love what im doing & i'll continue
you took th knife & stabbed me straight again & again ..no point , no nothing ...im still losing even though i lost it all ...i wna cry it all out , but i just cant cry ...haiiis .what am i to do ? i am affected but i never showed .im not strong but i have to ..i need someone but im losing all ..i really wna cry it all out & thn end it all .including my life ....i remembered , thats theres one sunday night .when me & wilson broke up for 2 hours ...on th 1oth august i think ...he suddenly remembered all our promises ...th singapore flyer ...th star gazing ...& our mirror ..thn he remembered th bilabong bag that i craved for ..he said he wanted to get it for me as a surprise ...how sweeet ... haiis& also he told me , he said ... ` we still got our one year anniversary havent go through ...` thats really sweet & makes me really happy ...it really hurts when all these things came to my mind today ..i wna cry , but theres no more tears to ..how terrible i feel ..i missed th past ....& i miss you ...& im just drunk enough to let go of all these pain ...............
♥ 12:00:00 AM
Happy Invisible Eight Month Wilson (:2612o7 - 26o8o8 (:everything's ok i guess ?it's better alrd . went to toa payoh , wanted to print picture .in th end dont have , so wasted my time .changed my blogskin too .there's tests tmr & yeahs , hate it .wilson ;i really hope that we'll be oks .cause it really hurts .now not only us , but my mum ...how long will i hold , i dont know how long .but im letting go of everything soon .not only you , but my family & everything .i want to meet you .
& if what you said was true ,i want you to say it straight in my face .& i'll go ....
Sunday, August 24, 2008 ♥ 12:38:00 PM
yarlee deleted her posts & to be fair , yes i've delete mine.still , i kept part of it ...YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT HO WILSON TOLD ME" i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers -" SINCE HE SAID IT , I LL LIAOS LAHS HORHS ! YOU SHOULD BE OVER TH MOON THAT WILSON IS HELPING YOU K ? he asked me to stay clear from His life & yours . SO I LL DOWN HERE LE OKS ?! knn .
Saturday, August 23, 2008 ♥ 11:52:00 PM
On The 23RD AUGUST 2008 at 09:59:48pm , Ho Wilson Said To Me ; i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers -went to wilson's house this morning .reached at 12.2opmwanted to study physics , end up slack all th way .didnt eat lunch again =xthn slept cause was really tired =x left his house at 5.oopm & uncle drived me home (:at 1o.oopm , me & wilson started quarelling .
& it's really a big quarrel this time .i wont forget what you said to me ..because of her , you protected her ...i maybe at fault ..but today proves how much you love me ...i meant nothing to you wilson ...what you said killed me ...you murdered me today saying i forced you to ...
`i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers`
`i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers `
`i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers ``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers ``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers ``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers ``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers ``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers ``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers``i don love u any more , stay clear frm my life and hers `i wont forget what you said to me ... NEVER ...our day is gone ...our perfect monday's gone ...you're perfect birthday plans are gone ...you're gone ...they're all taken away .. from me ...you killed me boy ...you murdered me today ...*//_Dead Alicia _
Friday, August 22, 2008 ♥ 11:18:00 PM
haiis .
great , seeing my tagboard , i cried ...
im sorry ..
i know i've disappoint everyone ...
my dancemates , my besties , my classmates & my schoolmates ..
everyone ...
im sorry , im really very sorry to disappont all of you ..
im sorry ...
shirley, pamela & pauline , i thank all of you for accompanying me & being with me when im in school ... thanks for being there all th while ...
junho & that unknown .. thanks for th tag ...
it touched me , it really did ...
& not forgetting , lipin .
my primary school friend , she read my blog
& suddenly msg me & ask me if im ok & need help ..
i really thank everyone who stood by me at this point of my life ..
i know i greatly disppoint all of you ...
im sorry ... haiis ..
Thursday, August 21, 2008 ♥ 11:59:00 PM
Happy Eighth Meeting Month Wilson .
i still cant get over it .seeing you remove all th things killed me ..you killed me today .No , you killed me th day you left me ...im so naive ... im really so stupid ...& i really was still hoping to celebrate your birthday with you ...because of your birthday , i only spend $2 this week & saved th rest ...now that my mum is like that ...
& i've lost you ...i really need that someone to be there for me ...someone that i can count on , lean on when th world crumbles on me ...but you chose to leave me at this point of my life ...where i need that someone to hold me through all these ...im dying , yes im collapsing .all i could do is to cry & cry & cry ...cut & cut & cut ..so uncontrollable ...why ? why must you do this to me ?
AT THIS POINT OF MY LIFE !
i wna meet you , i really need you .can you just spare me some time of yours ?is skating really more impt then your friend right now ?oh yah , im nothing to you ...& i always chose to end it all ...boy , forget me ,forget who i was ...& forget that you ever knew me ...now that im inferior to you ....im no longer th only one thats in your heart ...thats what hurts th most ...please think about how i feel ...Im dying this time ...Im really dying ...I'll leave you even though im dying inside ...i'll go ... for you .亲爱的你 好想再见你一面最爱你的人是我, 你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有说一句话就走, 最爱你的人是我,
你怎么舍得我难过,对你付出了这么多 你却没有感动过。
♥ 11:00:00 PM
My New Boyfriend (:
Th blood thats crimson Red ; with your name ...
( carved his name but hard to see anws )
Yes , im back to my old self ..th one when i needed th tools that lacerate my skin ...
& that crimson liquid that flowed shortly after ....
yes , i know i disppointed all of you ... im sorry ....
i think there's nothing to hide anymore ...
yes , it's my mum ...
i dont think there's a need to elaborate on , but yes .
im stressed because of this & i might quit school to work .
now that i've lost wilson at th same time , it's been hard to carry on ..
i dont know what to do anymore ..
i'll hang on & i know i have to ...
i'll be strong & hold on till th very end .
till i cant hold on any longer & i'll collapse ...
& realised , my world has turned black ...
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 ♥ 11:37:00 PM
tio snapped again T.Tdrew's chalet 17o8o8 morning & wilson's still alseep -_-
now i wonder . if this breakup meant anything to you ..
it doesnt seem to affect you at all ...
& this is what our love means to you ?
nothing ?
all th promises ever made ...
& yeahs , you're right .
it doesnt matter if im cutting or not ...
we never stopped fighting ... never . whys ?
im even inferior to that ANIMAL of yours ...
thn who am i ?
He said '' sry some of those promise cannot b fulfil due 2 our status le i promise u cox im ur bf ''
thats what hurts th most ; boy ....
haiis ...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 ♥ 10:26:00 PM
& omg ! thats me & wilson at drew's chalet ! =X
im nt sleeping , but hiding =x
I kept wondering everyday ...
when can i meet you ...
i really need you right now ...
it just all hurt too much ..
how long will i hold on ?
everything just still lingers in my mind ...
i dont know what to do ...
i dont know how to react ..
because i realised . I've lost you ...
tearing is a everyday thing to me right now ...
thats how hurt i am ....
She said ' I will b ur nothing , cause nth last forever~
He said " let me share ur burden let me b ur lifetime partner to b wif u ~
thats our personal msg on MSN .
Thanks boy , it really touches me ...
if i love you , th only thing now is to wait ..
If you really love me , i believe you'll come back no matter where i am ..
i'll wait because i love you ... ♥
说你为什么 ; 为什么要走
说你为何要分手
求你说出口; 分手的理由
♥ 9:08:00 PM
yesterday after school met kokwee outside sch thn he ask me pei him go lunch .went home to put bag & thn went outside school there cause it was raining .reach alrd thn he say he dont wna eat . walked back but a few steps le he say wna buy waffle -_-back to the bakery & thn he said he doesnt wna eat anymore . WTH ! =xhead back to school to find felicia & slacked awhile .pei felicia wait for her mum outside school at 2.3opm & went off with kokwee for lunch .coffee-shoped & he decided to buy lunch back to my house to eat .da pau-ed & went NTUC for some snacks .went to my house for lunch & we watched olympics -_-A maths test sucked ! T.Tlessons were ok .nothing much ...dance was tiring but normal ...skipped alot warmups today T.Tthere's SS test tmr .International conflict : thai & cambodia thingy ! =xsians ! test everyday ! ahhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!That Animal Bitch ! :DD
Sunday, August 17, 2008 ♥ 7:22:00 PM
♥ i love you ; now & forever ♥
drew & lijie cleaning =x
just love th sea & th sea breeze (:
Alicia ♥ wilson
ANdrew ! :D
my shagua sleeping =x
his hand ; haiis T.T
shagua's new hair (:
i tye one lorhs ! :DDDDDDD
RED (:
♥ SKATERSXZ RULESXZ ! ♥
damn long post ! T.T
i started writing this post at 7.22pm & it's now 9.33pm ! =xim back from drew's chalet :DDD
yesterday 16o8o8 was andrew's chalet at east coast ! :D
went out at 12.3opm & trained to outram thn to bedok meet wilson .
ask him come fetch me cause i dont know how to go .
he only saw my msg when i reach bedok while i msged him when i was reaching lavender -.-
this shagua dont wna me wait so long , so he took a cab down to fetch me thn go back east coast . i scolded him th moment i saw him ... haiis .
he was wearing his contacts & im really unhappy about it ...
haiis , i didn't mean to scream at him th moment i saw him ... haiis T.T
reached & met up with skaters ; andrew , akira daddy& chloe mummy , akira's bro , & lijie at th waiting lounge (: alaf alot down there lahs ! =x
& they played cards while me & andrew's like rotting ... =x
after about 15mins of waiting finally got the key & all so went to th chalet room .
E14 (: settled in & slack around .
practically damn bored & abit tio pangseh T.T
akira , his bro , chloe & wilson went upstairs de room slack while me , drew & lijie all downstairs emoing =x
clean up abit & settled our bags lorhs .
thn they come down slack awhile thn that wilson shagua showed me magic tricks =x
at first failed one luurhs . sha gua (:
thn just continued slacking around & me & wilson quarreled
cause he go hit his hand against th wall T.T
talked to chloe & yeahs , went to pamper my shagua
thn i went out to enjoy sea breeze .
joyce & daniel came & went back talk to th girls lorhs .
after that all went out to check bike & all thn left me & wilson
i was alrd abit emo because of alot of things thn yeahs , i cried .
& wilson lend me his shoulders .
sat at th staircase & * slept * thn th buffet came at 4+ ? & th rest came back .
didnt eat cause i go no appetite . ate one sotong ball cause drew says must shang lian =x
wilson came up th stairs & passed me a sandwich , but i didnt eat . sorry shagua =x
just sat at th stairs & came drew's friend & yangsing (:
wanted wilson to pei me cause i was really lonely .
thn i dont know why he dont want .
so he asked th girls to pei me in th room .
chit-chatted with babe & yangsing lorhs .
after that went out walk walk again at th beach .
sat there from 7.2o to 8.15 & i did went back to th chalet for about 5 mins but realise wilson went out .
joyce called me to go back but yeahs , i didnt want to cause wilson also went out to skate .
thn went back to th beach , sat down & stargazed (:
asked wilson to come pei me while so he came & yeahs .
we stargazed (: it was really beautiful & romantic , dark & cold (:
at first he downa sit cause he scared =x he's really my shagua oks (:
so cute & innocent (:
thn shagua hugged me & yeahs (: friends hug each other dont they :D
i was msging mummy to ask her let me stay over at th chalet cause i really want to spend time with wilson
in th end at 8.44 , mummy finally said yes & i was like omg omg ! :D
it was really cold out there & wilson suggested to go back to th room .
i at first downa de , but yeahs , he's worried about me so we went back (:
joyce & daniel had to go alrd T.T
& i can see that wilson's abit sad DD:
slack around th living room * ( downstairs )
thn sapph jie & eddie kor came .
sapph jie forced me to drink ¼ cup of absoulte vodka with coke ..
drank & yeahs , not drunk (:
time passes fast & i keep chaoing wilson pei me go out walk walk T.T
he dont want cause he scared i sick again ...
so we quareled over it again ..
thn i didnt take me phone & left th chalet room went to see th sea breeze again .
teared alil & went back lorhs ...
all came & talked to me & yeahs ...
went up & asked wilson for my phone thn he tell me downstairs ..
took my phone le thn went up again ..
sat beside eddie kor on th mattress on th floor & yeahs , was really tired ..
dont know why just came going up & down th stairs ..
gan daddy thn say they wna go drink sugarcane juice & go bedok jetty T.T
im very tired , so i didnt wna go .
thn wilson shagua actually wanted to go de ..
i scared scared alone so he didnt go & pei-ed me (:
yangsing also didnt go ..
so she slept in between th beds , on th mattress thn me & wilson slept on th bed on th right side . i got my last goodnight kiss from wilson (:
& it was damn fucking cold oks !
end up , me & wilson is like hugging each other & sleep -_-
one blanket practically like no blanket lorhs !
i was clinging on to wilson's extra shirt ! T.T
damn fucking cold & i kept waking wilson up to tell him im very cold but he like wont wake up de lorhs .
in th end , tug myself inside him & slept ...
3.ooam , rest of th ppl came back & wa laus , damn noisy !
yangsing , me & wilson woke up thn alaf alot again .
talked all dirty jokes lahs ! omg ..
slept at 4.ooam ... & yangsing went home =x
this time is everyone sleep together ...
akira daddy & chloe mummy slept on my left side mattress , thn me & wilson on th bed , akira's bro on th mattress & eddie himself on th bed while poor drew didnt sleep at all !
woke up at 8.ooam by drew & we alaf damn lot !
practically , they didnt wake up after me & drew poor water on their beds ...
th bed is totally wet lahs ! daddy & mummy's .
poored on wilson & he only shifted alil & went back to bed .
eddie reacted quite fast lahs !
thn we put cards & cups on daddy like th chinese zhong yi =x
still no reaction thn drew took alot of pictures (:
i lied so hard on wilson thn he no reaction T.T
practically bong on him lahs =x
all downa wake up so me & drew went to this free breakfast thingy ...
ate scrambled eggs , 2 hotdogs , cereals , 2 cakes & 2 spring roll + a cup of tea (:
FULL ! :D after three days not eating ...
went back to chao them wake up (:
wilson arhs , still downa wake up =x
chao him wake up :D
help him comb his hair & all thn he went to wash up .
checked out soon & slack at th waiting lounge again ..
went to take bus soon after & yeahs .
me & wilson & eddie took th wrong bus lahs .
go one whole big round ! instead of 15 mins we took th 45 mins bus T.T
eddie thn took bus to meet sapph jie lorhs ...
thn i pei wilson take train thn i alight at outram ..
said things in th train & yeahs ..
we teared .
i think i really broke his heart T.T & my heart too ...
alighted at outram & it really killed me parting with him ..
wilson ;
i downa i downa i downa !
i downa let go & i downa give up everything & anything !
it hurts me more thn anything to give up our friendship ..
im sorry i flared at you yesterday when you're wearing your contacts ...
i really didnt mean to .. i hope you'll understand why im doing it ..
promise me , no more fists , no more cuts , no more wounds & no more bites ...
promise me to take good care of yourself oks ?
dont get affected by me alrights ?
thanks for spending your time with me yesterday & today ..
thanks for sheding your tears because of me ...
im sorry that i hurt you ..
im sorry if im doing things that will hurt you ...
sorry for th unhappiness yesterday ...
i loved you yesterday , i love you today & i'll still love you tmr .
it's killing me inside .. i need you ...
` because i love you , i love you today & i'll love you tomorrow . i will take you just the way you are or any way you choose to be ; because i love you `♥ our mirror ; our promise ♥
Thursday, August 14, 2008 ♥ 11:24:00 PM
& i didnt make this heart shape ..it was there when i returned him his stuffs ...
i shifted it away & th heart still comes back ...
So what is it trying to mean to us ?
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !& yes (:Wilson & I are no longer Boyfriend & Girlfriend (:maybe we are friends , maybe we are not .
i dont know . havent make my decision yet (:
& thats 7months & 18days of love (:
2612o7 - 14o8o8 (:
we ended our tale early in th morning at 2.5oam of 14th & i slept at 3.3oam =x
after school went to Wilson's house to collect all my stuffs & return him his things (:
took my FBT & my shirt & returned him his candies , th memory box , th A&W can & our diary(:
reached at 4.oopm & slack awhile , took my stuffs thn continue slacking lorhs .
also nothing much to do .
& needless to say , who wont cry when they break yeahs ?
cried like some idiots at his house .
i dont know why , but my tears doesnt understand th word ` stop ` =x
i just kept crying & i felt so bitter ...
Wilson did cried too .
didnt really talk much & spend th time admiring him for th last time ...
before i left , went to th kitchen to clean up myself
& his mother was there & i think she was quite shock to see me in tears .
so th more she talked to me asking me wna join them for dinner ,
th more i wna cry T.T
left Wilson's house at 6.3opm & i cried all th way home ....
just feel so sad ? i dont know th exact words to say but ...
just feel like dying (:
didnt wna go home at first . but i wasnt feeling good as in i was feeling feverish
& th fact that i didnt eat a single thing for th whole day ..
decided to head home & Wilson's mother say reach home must tell her cause she's worried .
msg-ed Wilson all th way home & this idiot got no appetite to eat too T.T
reached home at 8.2opm & called him to chat all th way to 1o.oopmi seriously think , Wilson treats me better when im his friend (:
chatted with him again at 11+ ?
thn he went to study le lorhs (:
Wilson ;
i love you , boy (:
i swear it's true ...
it's your decision ; so please smile
& im unwilling to let go once more , i swear ...
& tonight will be th night that i will fall for you , over again .
dont make me change my mind ...
or i wont live to see another day
i swear it's true ..
because a girl like you is impossible to find ,
you're impossible to find (:
Saying GoodBye To My One & Only Soulmate , Partner & Boyfriend :
♥ Ho Wilson ♥
♥ I Love you ♥
♥ 12:18:00 AM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !I Hate You !
Yes , You ! You ! You !
I Hate You & I Really Do !
Fuck You !
Just Fuck Off Lahs !
Seeing You Makes Me Feel Disgusted !
Small Kid ! I FUCKING HATE YOU !
You Just Simply Suck Too Much ! BOOOOOO !
You're Not Pretty , You're Not Nice At All !
I dont See Why He Have The Need To Talk To Someone Like You !
Just Get Out From Our Life Lahs !
yes , im thinking of something i thought i'd never think of .me & baby's not in good term now .i think it's quite obvious .& i want to be ALONE !
Just Fucking Leave Me Alone Oks ?!my eyes are like goldfish right now .baby ;i dont know what i want now .just kill me will you ?i'd rather be killed , really .it hurts ...im dying inside ...im really dying this time .so miserable , so terrible , so unbearable ...you're unwilling to change & im unwilling to accept .what would become of us ?i know you've got nothing to hide .BUT PLEASE THINK OF HOW I FEEL !one word boy ... INFERIOR !
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 ♥ 11:00:00 PM
great .
dancers should know what im feeling .
i shall let it out .
i was wondering should i give up SYF or not ..
i know most of th reactions would be ..
` why on earth should i give up ? `
but come to think of it ...
it's really time consuming like
im a very lazy person . & i DREAD going to dance .
i hate going to school every tuesdays & wednesdays because i have dance practice .
am i really able to just devote almost half of my holidays to dance ?
i think it's a waste of time .
I HAVE TH PASSION TO DANCE !
& i really loved tao yao ..
but ... i cant catch up with teacher & all ...
& i want more time for myself T.T
like how free i am if i dont have dance on tues & weds ..
i can study & catch up my work ...
& go down rink every weds if i feel like ...
i dont know ..
i really dont know what i really really want ..
what would life be if im letting go ?
what would life be if im dancing ?
i'll have to choose th path i go & i'll have to bear th consequences myself ...
baby , dancemates , my holidays , my studys & taoyao ...
which & which will i choose ?
it's my passion , but it's taking over my life ...
thanks nicole , ruimin , joey , peiying
& not forgetting my only soulmate who stood by me whenever im down ..
Ho Wilson ; my baby boy ..
thanks for all th advices you guys gave me ..
alicia <3 dancemates !
& i <3 baby !
Nicole bloggedpls dont give up!!!yes, its very tiring and painful and time consumingbut seriously, you will really feel its worth it,when you dance on stage, and when the spotlight is on you.that moment is really unforgettable.rmb the last syf/xinthesis 1 and 2?how we cried when our results came out?rmb how all off us looked forward to the nxt syf?i really wish to see that kind of spirit coming back to you.you ppl are talented and gifted,
and will shine anywhere,regardless of where you stand orwhether zls notices you or not.every dancer, will definitely feel at one pointas if they have loss passionin dance, and just wanna quit.even, ruimin has felt it before.but you really have to just persistand remind yourselves of how you once felt about dance.
Monday, August 11, 2008 ♥ 10:39:00 PM
♥ when our lips touch ; ily ! ♥
high school musical ice tour ; my favourite pic of th day ! :DDDDDDDD
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !
most of you didnt know , baby asked for a break yesterday ...
but yeahs , we're oks right now ♥
he was damn sweet to me yesterday oks (:
& today was a bitter sweet day ! :D
no , it shall be sweet bitter day ! :D
went baby's house in th morning & reached at 11.45am ?
i was early & baby's still sleeping like usual ..
pei-ed him sleep awhile & he woke up & bathed at 1+ ?
baby promised me yesterday to bring me to moviees today & he really brought me luurhs ! :DDD
he watched his anime using his lappy at about 2.15 ?
& yahs , i dont watch so .
i was so tired that i fell asleep =x
baby actually say next time thn go movieees since i was so tired & he wanted me to get more sleep .
but i wan go , so changed & got ready .
left baby's house at 2.45pm & bused to JP :D
wanted to watch ` money no enough 2 ` but thn full house
so we watched space chimps :DDDDDDDDDDDD
we gt an hour + beforeshow starts ..
so we walk around th mall & baby played para para ..
he's like OMG so cute lahs :DDDDDDD
went places like precious thots , toys'r'us & kiddy palace :DDDD
soft toys ; soft toys & more soft toys :DDDDDDDDDDD
went up to cinema & we had a lil tiff ? just a lil disagreement .
but yeahs , popcorn did th trick :D
enjoyed this cute & hilarious moviee lahs :DDDDDDDD
after show went to da pau dinner & back to my house slack .
reach my house at 7.3opm & baby left my house 9.oopm .
& we quarreled again cause i was unhappy that he's leaving so early ...
haiis ...
we're equal .
im unreasonable & baby SCREAMED at me outside my neighbour's house
at sixth flooor ! T.T
screamed oks ? nt scold but SCREAMED ! T.T
I-RAN-HOME =x
baby tagged :D ( after we had a tiff T.T )
10 Aug 08, 23:55
gurl: gurl pls dun do so foolish
11 Aug 08, 00:32
gurl/baby~: i love u im serous <3
11 Aug 08, 00:32
gurl/baby~: serious
♥ but still ; baby i love you ♥
thanks for remembering all th promises we ever made ...
thanks for wanting to fufil them for me ..
baby , i really loved th way you sing to me ...
th way you look in my eyes , they just melt me & my heart ...
Sunday, August 10, 2008 ♥ 7:17:00 PM
Friday, August 8, 2008 ♥ 11:15:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !Happy Birthday Annlyn ! :Dschool was hell bored today !but i liked th sing along sessions (:super high ! :Ddismissed at 1o.45am & wanted to meet baby ..but same things always happens . so , forget it .wanted to get baby jovan's present for tmr .thn mum told me sh cooking tonight , forget it .stayed at home & slept -_- so no life =x& went to get baby jovan's present at 8.oopm (:oh & i realise . th most common kind of tags i get from my tagboard iss ` cheer up ` kind =xcant wait for tmr !HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL ICE TOUR WITH BABY
& BABY'S HOUSE STAYOVER TMR ! :DDDDDDDDDDDbaby ;you left me nothing to say ..& yeahs , we didnt talk today .guess i really meant nothing to you ..bye
Thursday, August 7, 2008 ♥ 11:46:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !Im happy that Mummy allowed me to stayover at baby's house this saturday ! :D
yeahhhhs ! :D
& 4 tests is over ..
all fail alrd lahs .. sighs ...
baby ;
i got no more strength ..
i surrender .. i really surrender ..
♥ in th waves that's crashing , im gasping for air ♥im giving it all my best this time ...th last chance , boy ...
Wednesday, August 6, 2008 ♥ 11:53:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !school sucks !like im so fucking tired & stress now .i cant absorb anything right now . fuck .& great , theres FOUR fucking tests tmr .FUCK lahs ! ENG , CHEM , PHYSICS & MATHS !wtf ?!fuck all this shit lahs !i really dont know what to do lahs !should i or should i not ? i dont know !!!LEE WAI TING ALICIA IS PRONOUNCED DEAD ON o6o8o8 AT 1o.43pm ....
BYE WORLD !baby ;haiis .thanks for listening to me cry just now ...thanks for encouraging me baby ...but im sorry ..i still cant understand ...sorry for flaring at you ..but haiis .it really hurts ...i just want to meet you lahs .please grant me this wish can anot ?!haiis .i love you baby ...* heartbroken *
Tuesday, August 5, 2008 ♥ 10:49:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !great , im super fcuking tired !skipped school yesterday & yeahs , got alot of things to catch up ..physics & maths tests not over ... shucks ..i hate th feeling of having test ...i wna it over & done with .. sians .sch was pretty bored like normal ..after sch at 1.15pm gt extra chem lesson ...till 3.15 ! chiong home & rest awhile & had my light lunch ( bread ? )& off to school for dance ..dancemates all came back & was quite nice lahs (:went home pretty early today & im very very tired now ..my chinese zhuo4 wen2's stilll undoneeeeeeeee T.TFALLING SICK SOON ! T.Tbaby ;i dont know why am i showing you attitude oks .i know it's my fault this time .but i just cant help it lahs .i feel so stess & fan right now can ..i need you by my side yet you're just not here for me ...i wna meet you yet you always say about ur exams !why cant th fuck i understand you sia !but i still find it unfair , you go out with friends to play ..but when it comes to meeting me , you'll rmb about exams ...im always sad & feel so unfair when it comes to this baby ..haiis but it's really sweet of you to give me morning msg today baby ..really appreciate ... love you .
Sunday, August 3, 2008 ♥ 11:03:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is loved !my baby boy & i love him ! ♥
& im very happy with baby this two days ! : DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
baby i love love love you ! MMMMUUUACCCKKKS ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥saturday♥
woke up at 8.ooam & did some housework ..
prepared & left home at 1o.ooam to go baby's house : D
reach his house at 11.45am thn he still sleeping nahs !
my baby piggy =x
lied on his bed while he was like on th floor de mattress =x
thn he sleep until about 12.3opm thn he came up & pei me : D
both of us fell asleep again & woke up at 2.oopm .
when to gekpoh to buy macs to mum mum & bubble tea drink ( cause i want ! :D )
went to get some snacks & went back his house slack ...
ate le thn tevee till about 6.3opm thn went back room sleep =xxxxxxxxxx
i know we're so pigg ! :DDDDDD
thn woke up at 7.45pm & dinnered ! : D
mother cooked for us :D
damn nice th dinner :D
after dinner we still laze around on th bed =x heehee .
talked & yeahs ...
left his house at 8.3opm & cabbed home ...
$22 cab fare T.T
thn baby bus home lorhs ..
♥ thanks baby ! i love you ! ♥
♥ sunday ♥ up at 8.45am & yeahs , housework again .cartooned awhile thn ate my so called breakfast .prepared & went down baby house again ..help sissy bought her shirt at boonlay thn bus down to baby's house .reached at 12.oopm & yes , baby's still sleeping ..great , i was super bored down there & i watch tevee with his family , clean msg from his phone ..thn i lie down on th mattress on th floor & slept ..woke up at 2.oopm cause peiwen was screaming at th phone =xxia dao wo =xthn i wake baby up =xlaze around th bed & really got up at 2.45pmate mother cook de porridge& teeveed till 4.oopmthen went gekpoh help jason kor buy food =xwent up macs again , bought th food le ,went to get news paper thn went to whr i bought my wallet :Dbought some stuffs , thn to but tao kae noi & thn to buy bubble tea & lastly to rent disc ! :DDDDDDDDDDgreat , bought alot alot ! :DDthn went back le ate abit of th crackers thn went in th room to watch ps.iloveyou ♥great i was actually sleeping =xso baby off-ed th show & we both fell alseep ..dont know why i love to sleep when im at baby's house =xwoke up at 6.3opm & dinnered ! :Dmother cook again !& th dinner was superly great ! : Dafter dinner baby bathed & we bus to hougang mall .bought some mee to eat & baby came my house & eat ..father came & fetch baby at 1o.o4pm when baby wanted to watch incredible tales with me =xbaby's it's always so sad when it's time to say goodbye T.Ti love these 2 days baby ...i love you ..baby wrote this to me when we quarreled just now at 11+baby , you're so sweet to me .im sorry & i love you ...Wiiro... Skatings my life ^^ says:
i onli love u Wiiro.. Skatings my life ^^ says:
my onli gf
Wiiro... Skatings my life ^^ says:
my onli partnerwiiro... Skatings my life ^^ says:
my onli soulmate which i wan gif her is happiness
Friday, August 1, 2008 ♥ 11:48:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !
DRAMA night ! : DDD
finally decided to go with my class guys to drama night ... hahs (:
deepak , andy , siewbeng & dave .
deepak & andy came & pick me up from my house downstairs at bout 6.45 pm
waited for siewbeng but thn went to sch to meet him in th end =x
met up with malcolm outside sch & went in to get the tickets from clarence ..
thn slacked around 2nd floor awhile thn deepak wna go fetch siewbeng from th classroom block
damn fucking dark & scary lahs !
& somemore got danceroom there ! T.T
i swear i was like screaming like some crazy person oks .
& i nearly cried T.T
by th time we went back , th door to hall was alrd open..
so we were sitting at th very last row T.T
th show was nice & yes , funny : D
enjoyed : D
ended & slack around sch hall for awhile .
deepak send me home at 9.15pm to my doorstep ! : D
thanks bud ! :DDDDDDDDD
i enoyed lahhhhhhhs !
& th MINI zamboni ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
