Thursday, July 31, 2008 ♥ 10:51:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !i know what's making me tear alrd ..
th thought of me unable to meet baby ..
i dont know why , i'll just tear whenever i think about it ...
how i wish time could go on faster , & stop when im with baby ...
i really missed him alot ..
i swear .. it's really disheartening to find out that he's so busy
& th plans i made in meeting him is gone ...
it just ... break my heart ...
but i know i have to understand ...
yet i dont know why i cant ...
five days since we last met ...
& tmr will be th sixth ..
baby's just like my drug ..
addicted to it ...
baby ;
loveees , you didnt lose me ..
im still right here , waiting for you .
i know you've work hard ..
win or lose , it doesnt matter ..
what matters most is you gave in all your best ..
& that you'll always be th winner in my heart ..
cheerup baby ..
♥ i love you ♥
* so desperate to meet baby .. haiis *
Wednesday, July 30, 2008 ♥ 10:05:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !Do I Even Mean Anything To You , Wilson ?three days since i updated ...damn tired , damn moody , damn irritated .nothing much ..school's damn stressed right now ..i feel so damn fuck up in life right now ..so many tests .. so many moody days ...so many things to rmb ,.so many things to catch up ..& now ? my family & relationship ...SO MANY FUCKING PROBLEMS ! T.Tfeel like ending my life right now ...or i can take mummy's place ...that'll be great since im so useless ...arghs ! FUCK all this lahs !JUST KILL ME LAHS .I DONT WISH TO SUFFER ANYMORE ! Alicia Lee Wai Ting Is Pronounced Dead ...bye people ...meet you in my next life ...baby ;i dont know what's wrong lah oks .you wna treat me unfairly i nothing to say .you dont wna to meet me cause of ur exams i dont care alrd .you wna spend time skating instead of meeting me , also gt nothing to do with me le .I WONT TIE YOU DOWN oks ?i give you whatever you want ..you want go home at 1 am or 2 am or dont go home anything you ..since you dont want me to scold you cause i worry about you thn i wont say a single thing .i dying down here you also dont care ...your skating & exams are th most impt thing in your life right now that you cant even spare me a friday night ! what is this ?!im not scolding you or what oks ...you think it doesnt hurt me when i type until like that ?fuck lahs ! it's killing me oks .♥ you're no longer there for me anymore ... ♥both mentally & physically tired ...I WANT TO DIE ~!i feel so inferior to them ..
i just cant rmb & no matter how hard i try , i'll still fail ~
FUCK ALL THIS SHIT !
Sunday, July 27, 2008 ♥ 11:15:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is ; love-ed !Happy One Year Anniversary to Me & Kokwee ! :D
thanks for being there for me ! :D
friends forever ! :Doks , & im back from BALLET UNDER TH STARS concert !!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDit's damn nice & th dancers are damn zai ! :DDDDDwent to tuiton in th morning & left at about 11.3oam & went to heartland to shop around ...got my stuffs & went home ..online awhile & prepared myself ..bathe , do up my hair , make up .. etc ...left home at 3.oopm & met kokwee at house downstairs ..went point to get his stuffs & mine ..slack around & he taught me how to go fort canning park ..about 3.4o went to take bus to hougang & went NTUC to get snacks ..thn he went home while i head down to Dolby Ghaut to meet Nicole :Dmet her at Parkmall & walked to fort canning green ..had a damn hard time walking ...found th place & ebird came out & pass us th tickets :Dwent in & sat for 5 mins , went out to get foooood !heeheeee !!!!!!!!!!we actually took out our heels & walk bareeeefoot ! LOLS ! :Dwent to PS to get food ! :DDDDbought damn lots i tell you !went back in an hours time ...& concert started real soon .i think it's damn nice where you sit down & picnic while there's concert going on ..great ..th dancers all damn zai ! :DDDDDDDDwhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeee ~!had a great great time with nicole loveeees :Dconcert ended at 9.3opm ard there actually wna go find baby de . he dont allow .. haiis T.TP.S ; I SWEAR NOT TO WEAR HEELS ANYMORE !!!!!!!!!!
BLISTERS ARE COMING OUT & IT HURTS LIKE FUCK RIGHT NOW ! T.Tbaby .
missed you ...
dont flare at me le ...
haiis ...
just wna meet you mahhs T.T
Saturday, July 26, 2008 ♥ 11:34:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson !
my fave pic of th day ♥♥
both our hair looked funny though ♥
taken at my house while watching teeveee !
baby look-ed firece :D
he take pic always like to be retarded ! :D
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !even though morning was a lil bitter for me ..
but I LOVE TODAY ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥baby only msg-ed me when it was 1.ooPM !
& i seriously wait for his msg until wna die ! T.T
thought he not coming find me le ...
thn he msged me at 1.oopm saying goodmorning ..
see lah , my baby piggy ... game so much ytd ... tsk !
he reached my house at 3.3opm & slacked ...
pass him his present & help him change & all ..
did quarrel** a lil over th girls again ..
it's always th same old reason we always quarrel ..
yeah & i made him teared again ..
sorry baby T.T
after that , everything was alright (:
so today was just spending time resting on him & watching teevee lorhs .
tv-ed from 5.oopm to 6.3opm & went out to get dinner ..
we went 1oth floor for an hour first . heehee ♥♥♥
started to go hougang point when it was 7.3opm ..
went to da pau KFC & baby at first say he going home for dinner ..
thn he's a lil hungry & i knew .
so asked him like buy an apple pie or smth .
in th end when queue-ing for MAC he told me he eating at my house :DDDDDDDD
help him called mother & told her ...
thn i went to thisfashion to see th top i wanted ! :DDDD
baby got it for me ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
baby ! love you lahs ! ♥ !
walked home & dinnered :D
after dinner it was like 8.45pm ?
baby sat down with mummy , daddy , sissy & me to watch channel 5 together .
hahs . show ended pretty soon & baby's fave cartoon showed !
he watched it for 15 mins & yeah , it was getting late ..
so , went outside & took pic :D
& yeahs , baby went home ..
at 11.2o , mother msged me ask me baby leave my house alrd anot =x
scare me luurhs .
& yes , now is 11.48 & baby's home (:
baby ,
i love th way we are now ..
simple & sweet ♥
happy 7th month ♥
together we will be . now & forever :D
♥ i love you baby ♥
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !
♥ 12:16:00 AM
Happy seventh month baby ...2612o7 is still going on ...love you .
Friday, July 25, 2008 ♥ 10:33:00 PM
i miss th times we had , i really do ... haiis
19o4o8 - dinner with my family at changi village ..
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed ! i'd always love fridays ! :D
PE in school is fun ! :DDDD
& not forgetting , recess ! :D
i love you louise ! ♥ !
went NTUC with mummy in th afternoon
pei-ed mummy at home till 5.45 went for dinner together :D
baby ;
todays a GREAT day ehh ...
woa .. no smses at all ! :D
only 5 mins talk time ...
nothing elses ...
i've really been doing alot of thinking...
i just cant stop thinking ...
i've got alot to ask ...
i've got alot to want ..
& i've got alot to learn ...
but i cant figure it out alone ...
i cant work all this out myself ...
i need you to be with me ...
from 7PM when i come online ,
i stared at you in MSN till now .. 1o.42 PM
still no reaction ... i've seen your status change , busy , online , busy , online .
but still , you didnt talk to me at all ...
oh well , i wont mind ... i really wont ...
how many sorry's have you said to me about you neglecting me ?
but why havent you do anything about it ?
who exactly am i to you , boy ?
i really hope tmr will be a surprise to me ...
this few days are hell ...
really hell ...
♥ boy , do you love me ? ♥ how come i dont feel it at all ? when can i ever stop thinking ?
Thursday, July 24, 2008 ♥ 10:41:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 2612o7 is love-ed !
hate school =x
after school went to find xiao yan fei laoshi =x heehee .
for th chengyu test ..
went home , bathed & went out .
bused to woodlands , thn walk around find baby's present .
no nice nice de , so decided to head down to novena ...
bought th present le , wna go toa payoh print stuffs .
i actually dumb dumb go take wrong train ..
` next stop , newton . ` ehh , wrong lahs !
lols , alighted & took th correct train to toapayoh .
print alrd & bus home ...
baby's present damn nice lahs !
hope he likes it :DD
i downa go sch tmr T.T
baby ;
what's a whole day neglecting me, to you ?
it might be nothing .
but i'll tell you ...
im numbed alrd ...
i alrd have th bo gah lan feeling alrd ...
i still love you as much as before ...
but i dont wna care anymore ...
you want freedom & you shall gt it ...
& im a lil mad at you pon-ning your CCA for you friends ..
while i know you'll NEVER pon it for me ...
at least in th past you did ..
that was like 2 months ago .... on 15 may 2oo8
IM DAMN IT FCUKING HAPPY THAT YOU FCKUING CALLED ME FOR 21 MINS ! :DD
like finally ...
you know how i wish that time would stop for me & you when we're on th phone ...
i realised , i missed you ...
just alil ..
but , do you ?
haiis ...
♥ whats wrong with us ? ♥
should we let go ?
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 ♥ 10:33:00 PM
baby's shy shy
080608 - baby's house stayover ...
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !
so tired !!!
lessons were boring as usual ._.
dance was great ! & there's DSA today ..
there's this very pro girl , she dances nicely but ....
SHE'S VERY ARROGANT ! OMG ! hate her zzz
tao yao again ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
love it love it love it !
i really wna dance it mansxz ! :D
& it's been very long since i went shopping with daddy at NTUC ! heehee =D
he bought me my fave ice creammmmm ! wheeeeee ~!
yeahs ...
baby ,
no meetups , no phone calls , few smses ..
how to survive through it all ?
im dying to meet you , yet you're dying to avoid me ..
i dont care & im gonna meet you on fri !!!!!
haiis , fuck all this shit !
wna to talk to you on phone also cnnt .
i make sure you after exams everynight min 1 hr of talktime ah ...
haiis .
cry cry cry cry cry ...
♥ whats on your mind ? ♥
i just wan talk to you on th phone , why cant i ? i feel that im no longer anybody to you ..
this sucks !
you treat me better when im your friend , boy ...
Tuesday, July 22, 2008 ♥ 11:23:00 PM
3o03o8 -suntec shopping & changi village with baby =D
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !tao2 yao1 rocked mansxz !!!!!!! omg !!!!!
i wna dance it pretttttty pleaseeeeeeeeeeee !
but come to think of it ,
if i were in , my tues & weds will be gone !
but it'll all be worthwhile ! =DD
no more mr barton's lesson .
no more interesting english lessons !
there's reading period tmr ; & sadly , 2 hours of maths . dead T.T
oks , it's pretty hard to hide those wounds at home , from my family DD:
but yeahs , th best , plaster it all th way ! ( which i've beeen doing =x )baby baby ;
haiis , i dont know what to do ...
why are you always so pek cek to me ?
when will you ever call me even though i didnt asked you to ?
when will you give me a tag on my tag board ?
when will you give me a comment on friendster ?
when will you give me a msg when you're home without me reminding you to ?
when are we gonna meet ? !
& when are we gonna talk on th phone for long long hours ?
so many whens in my mind & yeahs ...
there are many more ... but i dont wna think of any right now ..
i have to force myself to have th ` i dont care ` attitude .
that will be th best ..
everything is unfair yeah ?
everybody is treating me unfairly ..
& not forgetiing , i felt that you dont appreciate me doing up your friendster ...i know you dont bother at all ...♥ love me , love me not ♥ i just miss you though i know it meant nothing to you , baby .
Monday, July 21, 2008 ♥ 10:20:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !happy seventh meeting month isnt happy afterall ...no meetups & yes , quarrelled .just what's wrong with me ?whats wrong with everything ?why do i always feel so terrible ?i wna cry it all out ...im dying inside .th pain just wont be gone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SOMEONE JUST KILL ME & I SHALL LEAVE !i dont wna to suffer all this pain ..it's just so fcuking unbearable !WHATS WRONG ?!!!TELL ME WHATS FUCKING GOING WRONG !!!!!!what am i sad over now ?what am i crying over now ?why am i dying in my heart ?why is my heart bleeding ?why are you doing this to me ?why why why why why why why WHY WHY WHY WHY ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TELL ME !SOMEONE JUST GIVE ME AN ANSWER !fuck all this shit !fuck everything !fuck today !i wna escpae from reality ...reality always hurts ...i really want to talk to you on th phone ...i know you're busy ...i know i know i know BUT WHAT DO I FUCKING KNOW ?!i know nothing !im an idiot ! get it ?a stupid fucking idiot here being retarded .FUCK ALL THIS !FUCK ALL TH TEARS !♥ boy , we'd never talked on th phone for a very long time alrd ♥
everytime when i thought of how long it would be to meet you , i'll tear T.T
♥ 12:07:00 AM
Happy seventh meeting month baby ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥i still rmb th way you looked at me seven months ago . at th MRT station :D
Sunday, July 20, 2008 ♥ 7:48:00 PM
♥ my favourite boy ♥
lying on my bed ; p.s - he's really asleep ! :D
& thats how he vandalised my hand :D
covering my cute RED plaster ! =x
th before - 19th july 2oo8
& yes . our promise baby ...
& th after , today ..
it's th last time i'll cut baby ..
it's our promise ♥
& today . taken at father's car :D
my eyes are swollen from crying
& baby's advertising for th green cube in his mouth ! :D
love you baby ! ♥
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !
19th july 2008
woke up at 8.3oam & did some housework ..
surprisingly , baby woke up at 8+ too !
& he msged me ! :DDDDDDDDDDD
so agreed to meet at 1o.3oam at Dolby Ghaut MRT station ..
i reached at 1o.2oam while baby was late ! =x
he reached at 11.2oam . LOLS .
travelled down to novena
& baby got a card & a small lil sunflower for mummy (:
by th time we reach , daddy , bro & aunt was alrd there like duh ._.
waited till about 1.3opm & we're ready to go home
baby also came my house :DDDDDDDDD
mummy & daddy was sleeping in their room & baby was tired too .
so he slept on my bed & i slept on th floor =x
everyone slept =x all piggys :D
slept from 2.45pm to 5.oopm
baby sleep so long lorhs , he piggy =x
daddy thn got us dinner & baby left at 7.oopm ..
i was unhappy that baby got to leave so early
& was throwing my tantrums at him ..
making him go smash his fist against th wall twice ..
& to repay , i ___ ed T.T
im sorry baby ...
im so sorry that i bu ting hua T.T
baby , do think about what i said oks ?
put yourself in my shoes ...
im sorry im harsh on you ...
love you baby ...
& we'll keep our promise on th cuts ...
today today today ! :D
yeahs , tution in th morning .. damn sians .
after tuition went to baby's house ..
reached at 12.45pm & he was playing maple ._.
but thn he off-ed to pei me ! :D
mother carried baby jovan to baby's bed & he's like so damn cute lahs !
thn after that i complain hungry cause didnt eat =x
so baby went to kitchen & took mother cook th spaghetti for me .
damn nice ! :D i like i like ! :DDD
eat le thn watch finish show thn baby wna sleep .
idiot piggy lahs he ! fat fat ( but i like ! :D )
i actually downa sleep de lorhs , thn i fell alseep till phone rang ..
thn dont let baby sleep .
keep disturbing him =x
thn at about 3 took his phone & yeahs ..
found out that everything i said ytd meant nothing to him ...
& yes , cried .
cried till my eyes are sore T.T
shall not elaborate on what happened .
baby went to bathe , & left house at 4.15pm .
father fetch baby to work & thn he fetch me to boonkeng MRT after that .
thanks father ! :D
baby .
i really hope that you know what im trying to tell you ..
all th tears i shed wasnt for show ..
it's really from my heart ..
if you're unwilling to change & if i see no effort from you ..
i'll let you go alrights ?
i'll grant you your wish alright ?
dont forget our promise !
& please , no more deer deer & all that ...
no more anyone inbetween us ..
i'll give you time , but i hope you'll change ...
baby , being with you wasnt for th girlfriend title ..
i really wna be th one that you'll turn to , th one you'll share your burden with ..
♥ i love you baby ♥
Friday, July 18, 2008 ♥ 11:31:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !& mummy's doing perfectly well (:cheerios ! :DDafter sch went home , bathed & went toa payoh to get mummy's roses ..reached at 3.oopm & pei-ed mummy till 8.30pm ...mummy's coming home tmr ! love you mummy ! :DDbaby ...im sorry im harsh on you today ..but i was really disppointed ...both times baby , both times when i needed you th most ... where i have to go through th darkest days of my life ...th days when i needed someone to hold me through it all ...im nt blaming you baby ..but im just disappointed ...very disppointed ...i knew my mum meant nothing to you ..& i knew your watch meant alot to you ..& i knew im th cause for it all ..im th cause for you losing your watch ...im sorry ...18th is always an unlucky ate for me & you ..it is exactly like last month ..im afraid history will repeat itself ..i downa lose you ...There are times it seems to meI'm sharing you in memoriesI feel it in my heartBut i dont show itCause I want it all or nothing at allThere's nowhere left to fallWhen you've reached the bottomIt's now or neverIs it allOr are we just friendsIs this how it endsWith a simple telephone callYou leave me hereWith nothing at all ...
Thursday, July 17, 2008 ♥ 11:07:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !♥ MUMMY ; ♥
even though you're always scolding us & nagging at us . i know you did it all because of us ..
you want us to be good girls in th future & you want us to bring you glory ..
i know i'd always make you angry & worry for us in th past ...
i know you tried very hard to give us the things we always wanted . thanks you for being such a great mummy to me ! i love you mummy ! ♥ ♥ yes & i miss mummy T.T
english lesson's great ! cant wait for th next session ! :Dback home at 9.3opm ..just too tired to study but i shall workhard !* hope i will instead of falling asleep *my lil bro is alsleep on my bed now . hahs .baby ; i didnt say anything .im just asking & you got so pekcek ..i dont know baby ...& yes , i mind i mind i mind ..but i know i have to learn ...i know i have to change ...im trying very hard .. very very hard ...♥ i need you badly ... ♥i love you ...joyce babe wrote to me ;
when you are undergoing pain.. at least u are happy with it because everything is worth it for the guy u really lovebabe , im not as strong as you ..i'll collapse any minute ... unlike you ...does all dates of 17 sucks ?it looks like last month ..im afraid now ...
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 ♥ 10:42:00 PM
♥ you'll always be my sweetheart ♥
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !
No more ITE tmr ! T.T
tmr's back to normal lessons DD:
guess it'll be damn boring .
dont feel like going school le lahs !
todays ITE's great (:
feel kinda sad leaving th place DD:
oh well .. hahs :D
dont know why im having moodswings ...
baby , it's affecting me ...
i tried very hard not to think about all these things .
but they'll still appear in my mind ...
whatever you said to whoever , not only one but all ...
it's hurting me ...
i dont want th patch this time to be a mistake ..
please tell me it's not a mistake & it never will ...
how am i able to control my feelings when i see all that ?
i cant , im sorry .
i really cant ...
♥ i'll always choose to leave with a shattered heart & painful tears ♥
you know i love you ...
Tuesday, July 15, 2008 ♥ 11:11:00 PM
♥ baby in you , i found affection , affection i had never felt before ♥
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !
ITE practically ROCKED !
woooos ~ !!!
set off from school at 8.15 & reached at 9.ooam
had 1¼ hr meeting & i think it was oks while all of them find it boring =x
proceed on with a ½ hour break or something like that ..
& we took class picture :DDD
then went on to play one of their CCA - Floorball !!!
i didnt really enjoy it when we were playing it in OUR school .
but i enjoyed alot over there .
& it really bond part of th class together :D
but seriously , it was very alaf =x heeheehee
we played it for an hour & LUNCH break again !
i wonder why there are so many breaks =x
this time break 1 hour .
ate laksa & drank mango juice (:
thn gt this bunch of ITE students keep staring at our stretch of table .
th girls will know why =x
lunch break ended pretty soon
& we have courses to attend .
first course we attended was on advertisement .
it was fun & th class was super coldddddd !
im like freezing down there ! T.T
after 1 hour course , break again !
* how i wish we'll have many breaks in sch ! =x *
this time it's a ½ break & it ended real fast .
2nd course is video conferencing !
had many alaf moments with my group (:
course ended at 4.oopm & back to sch =x
♥ Ho Wilson is my one & only ♥
baby , i know you're busy .
i'll understand .
baby , thanks for sending me msg even though you're busy .
even though you neglect me just a lil ,
i know i cant be like th past .
i wna be th girl you wna (:
♥ i love you baby ! ♥
Monday, July 14, 2008 ♥ 11:02:00 PM
♥ give me your warmest hug ever ♥
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !
& i miss baby loads loads ! :DDDD
baby's sleeping now . hahs .
guess he's tired from school bahs ...
♥ i love you baby ! ♥
Sunday, July 13, 2008 ♥ 11:59:00 PM
♥ baby , hold my hand & never let go again ♥
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !
baby ;
i dont ever want to let you go ever again !
this one month is hell . hell to both me & you ..
all th tears we ever shed together ...
im sorry i hurt you in th past ...
im sorry i made you teared a thousand times ...
baby , i'll try to be th girl you always knew .
dont ever leave me oks ?
i really love you alot ..
i love you baby ! muacks !
& thanks for making this decision .
every single thing you ever said & did will always be in my heart ...
Alicia ♥ Wilson ..
baby , woaini :DD
baby , let's not make this a mistake .
let this be th first & th last ...
muacks ! ♥
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm prayin' you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
'cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
♥ 10:39:00 PM
Alicia ♥ Wilson ; 261207 is love-ed !went to baby's house at 9.ooam this morning :D
reached at 10.40am &
mother was like quite happy to see me . heehee (:
im happy to see her too ! =D
went to jason's kor's room to see baby jovan !
& omg , he's superly cute ! :DD
i got to carry him & he was like so cute & his eye's so chio ! :DD
watch tv-ed & went in to baby's room to disturb him at about 11.15am
thn took his blankiie & cover for him ..
took tortise & lied on it & fell asleep on baby's feet with tortise .
thn suddenly baby kick me =x
ask me sleep beside him ....
i downa thn he angry angry =x
so slept beside him for about 1½ hour thn played pillow fight with baby =x oops .
up at 1.45pm & he wash up & watched his fav cartoon =x
pei-ed him & was looking for his penknife & all ...
took staple lead & ... ...
baby wasnt happy so sat down & talked alot ..
& it really hurts me to see him tear because of me ..
talked really alot ..
time passes fast & soon it was going to 3.oopm le .
baby said he wna spend all his time with me before going to work ..
so sweet rights ♥ went in to th room & he hugged me so tightly ...& yes , i cried ...we still love each other ... as much as before ...& baby suddenly asked for patch ...& i cried even more ! T.Tthn baby need to change & get ready for work le .thn i ask him go out of th room to change cause i lazy go out& with tears in my eyes .so baby went to bathe while i lied on th bed thinking ...thn he finish le send baby to farrer park for work & i went home ...
Saturday, July 12, 2008 ♥ 1:27:00 AM
o6o6o8 - baby's house stayover //
- kbox date with skatersxz ...
this few days like ... ... but really ...
it all seemed like yesterday ...
yesterday ...
& i cried in class after watching ` liang shan bo yu zhu ying tai ` show during chinese class ...
yes , i mean i cried . not teared ...
i dont know but at th moment , th past kept flashing through my mind ...
haiis ...
And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
boy , i miss you ...
♥ how i wish you would sing that song to me ... i really wish ..♥
Friday, July 11, 2008 ♥ 1:16:00 AM
i'll leave ..i'll just disappear ..& i cant take it anymore ...whys ?im sorry boy ....it hurts just too much ...
♥ 12:58:00 AM
i'll never leave you ..o1o5o8 - baby's house ...
i dont know what im doing anymore ...
it simply hurts ..
both of us ..
me & you ...
im sorry i got you into this ...
im sorry for hurting you ...
& im nt worth boy ...
im sorry ...
no matter what happens ,
i'll still love you ...
♥ Cut ; Bleed ; Die ♥
& this is me ...
Tuesday, July 8, 2008 ♥ 11:03:00 PM
o2o4o8 - xinfony's night (:
& it's just another wasted night of waiting .
sighs .. i dont know what to say but ... yeahs ...
i feel so terrible missing you ..
like it's such a painful thing in my heart .. like ..
i dont know ...
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
♥ th scene it still lingers in my mind , again & again ♥
boy , i miss you & i really do ...
Monday, July 7, 2008 ♥ 11:23:00 PM
o6o6o8 - kbox date !
me trying to hide from th cam =x
& im back from causeway (:
met wilson at 7.30pm at causeway .
but we're both early ! he reached at 7.15 PM (:
deciding to go whr for dinner .
thn he suggested pastamania .
so went & look look & ordered .
talked alot too (:
& i hate octopus =xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
after dinner went to walk walk around cause he wna buy ear stud .
went to th bluez , th other shop & also 77th streeet .
bought his stuffs le & when we went to action city , saw his friend .
went washroom & thn wna go see whr gt sell elmo .
go minitoons see have anot .
thn we inside th shop see see thing thn i saw alot of beautiful stuffs mah .
wilson keep snatching from me thn wna go pay money .
my dumb boy (:
in th end , he managed to get his way through to th cashier with my stitch bottle .
boy boy ahhs , you arhs .
thn it was 9PM le . so decided to go home .
he pei me go home lorhs .
bused- 161
& on th bus , we were looking at th past msges together .
- thn walk pasar malam .
thn bought a drink & he played a game .. LOLS .
went up my house put stuffs .
thn send him to th stairs .
talked alot & ... yupps .
♥ my heart was melted by you once more , my dumb boy =x ♥
& i promise to wait for you . it's you ...
Ho Wilson =x
Sunday, July 6, 2008 ♥ 11:40:00 PM
on th way to downtown :D
sakura restaurant ! damn shiok ! :D
i know i look like a ghost (:
& me emoing =x hahs
my incomplete family , heehe . who's missing ? =x
th threesome ! hahahahs =DD
& th birthday lady ! :D my aunt =D
& th dinner was great (:
Friday, July 4, 2008 ♥ 12:05:00 AM
our chubby love ! ♥15o5o8 - crystal jade dinner ! :D
whats a day without talking to you ? haiis .
im looking forward to tomorrow .
yet i know it wont turn out as planned .
will it be an emo day for me ?
or will it be an enjoyable day with you ?
I don't wanna forget you
I don't even wanna try
How am I supposed to walk on by
When you're looking like that
How am I supposed to leave you
I can't believe what I just gave away
Cause I can't take it back, I'm lost
I don't wanna live my life without you
How am I supposed to leave you now ...
i miss you dearly ...
my heart cant take it anymore ...
haiis ...
Thursday, July 3, 2008 ♥ 12:01:00 AM
say you'll never go ; wilson ...o1o5o8 ; happy wedding jason & peiwen .
& what am i feeling right now ?it's still th same ..im still feeling so terrible .. like why ?!please fucking tell me ...how can i get on with life ?Alicia , you fucking sucks ! haiis .i wna cry , but there's just no more tears to cry ...fuck my feelings & fuck my heart ...help me , please ...help me through all these ...why am i still dying to meet you ?
it hurts & im nt kidding . it really does ...
A fragile heart was broken before
I don't think it could endure another pain
But there's a voice from deep inside of you
That's calling out to make you realise
That this new bond gives inspiration
To all that feel the love appeal no more
But how can I break this wall around you
That's aiding both our hearts to grow in pain?
So forget your past and we can dream tomorrow
Save our hearts for care and loving
It's hard, I know, but one thing's for sure
Don't go and break this fragile heart
A hurting mind in need of emotion
I don't hink it could endure another pain
But baby, in you I've found affection
Affection I have never felt before
So don't let your past destroy what comes tomorrow
Don't go and break this fragile heart...
With all this fire that burns between us
There's so much to lose, yet so much more to gain
And if I could choose the world around me
The world I choose would all revolve 'round you
So help me complete the game inside me
And help to mend, to mend this fragile heart
Alicia ; im gasping for air ...
im sorry , but it's still hurting me ... haiis .
Wednesday, July 2, 2008 ♥ 12:45:00 AM
retarded princess & retarded prince ! ♥21o3o8 (:
i knew i loved you before i met you
i think i dreamed you into life
i knew i loved you before i met you
i have been waiting all my life
in your eyes
i see the missing pieces
i'm searching for ...
I am complete now that I found you ....
im sorry i caused so much unhappiness to you ... haiis .
we're both hurting so much & we're both shedding tears ...
whys ?
& finally , i feel it affecting me deep inside ...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008 ♥ 11:06:00 PM
by weizhe kor to me ...
hey. been some while since i've talked to you. hurr, cheer up ya. don't be too upset. yes, it may affect you but try not let it affect your studies. I believe in singapore, what matters more, is the cert.Sad or happy, the time will still pass.
i may nt be able to comprehend how you feel but what i want to say is that.. now, it's better to focus on your studies.having a bf = happy. but the happiness doesn't earn you a future.don't be like my friend. she didn't score well enough for her major exams because of her breakup and didnt manage to get her desired course. but then, who knows. the people accept you via your result, they dont check and give you extra privilege because smth happened to you. and what about her bf, he doesn't even care.
so ya, a bit naggy here. but haha. Life still carries on. No matter what happens, it's just part and parcel of life. This may just be an obtacle in your life. Jiayou ya, my dear mei. sorry ah, but a bit long winded. haha. Most importantly, dont do anything silly to yourself ya. If you need a listening ear, I'd can be one.
i like to disturb him when he's building it =x
he's as retarded as before ♥
my sandcastle made by wilson ! with my initials on it ! A ! :D
th owner & my builder ! ♥
my fave pic (:
